Love your Healthy Self
I've always had this image of needing to be considered skinny, small, and petite. I was setting myself up for great disappointment because with my body type, that will never be me. I was sacrificing my health, worth, and relationships to fit into a definition of something that I would never be. Not because I wasn't good enough or not because I wasn't small enough, but because that was not the way I was made to be. This is one of the hardest things I have ever had to be being okay with. SIZE DOES NOT MATTER!!!!!! I remember one Christmas when an Ex's mom bought me a size large sweater. I cried for the thought of her really thinking I was a large. Did she think I was fat? Why large? It killed me. It didn't cross my mind that maybe she was choosing it for the length? It didn't cross my mind that she normally see's me wearing baggy clothing. I let it ruin my worth and health for misunderstanding a simple gesture. I am tall with an ass and legs. Even at my smallest (extremely unhealthy and malnourished) I was never a size 4, 2, 0, or 00! There is nothing wrong with being those sizes as long as you are those sizes naturally and healthy. It is not what dress size you are or how much you weigh. It's about loving the healthy you. It's about defining each word you describe your ideal body to be like and associating them with new realistic positive words. For example skinny to me was beautiful, sexy, smart, accepted, loved, adored, and admired. Now with a positive realistic spin my ideal body is fit, healthy, and radiant; which associates more to my older definition of skinny. |
You are not alone and you will never be! This change does NOT happen overnight, but with the right support and guidance you will begin to love and be happy with you! If you want more advice or want to talk, please comment or enter your email.